big words

hmmm i guess i've always envied others all my life. cuz dey're always so lucky. i never thought i was lucky. never in my life. and yet, lookin back right now, i think dat maybe i was wrong. i think right now, everything is going well.

jealousy. it ruins the world. fah asked me once why dere had to be jealousy in da world. hmmm interestin qn. i have no idea why, but i guess we're made dat way. plus it makes da world more fun. hahahaha. but seriously speakin, i think dat i've been dealin with jealousy all my life. i guess all dat stupid things that i've done, it's all cuz of jealousy. envy. it can kill. trust me. maybe i shld learn to appreciate myself more. after all, all of us are unique in our own way right?

it's amazin sometimes, dat someone is thinkin of u right this very moment and u dun even realize it. i guess this shows dat at least dere is someone who still bothers abt ur existence out dere. yay. guess we're not alone after all eh?

a million and one songs remind me of you
reminds me of da laughter and da pain
sometimes they make me laugh, and sometimes they make me cry
but still i have no idea why i'm listenin to them over and over again.

i guess sometimes we just need to re-live some memories, even though it might bring a smile to our faces or hurt like shit. but sometimes it's also best to let things go, and never look back. maybe den will we be contented in life.

okie is this inspirin enough? huh? isit? isit? isit?